Thursday, October 15, 2009

6 Year Old Boy in Balloon - Balloon Boy

I hope that the kid is alive. it does not matter if the media has been duped, that is better than this child losing his life. I do not blame the parents at all, despite of what it has been said about them.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Randomness of the Soul


Is time to knock off the sadness.
Life can not continue with doom and gloom,
shake it off I must.

Mistakes of the past, that is all they are, past mistakes,
those are not standing forward, waiting for me.
I can not impose my will on others, but others can not impose it on me.
No! If I respect, I will receive respect, nice try, try again!

I am simply not doing enough for anyone but myself.
When I grow up, will I know that I did?
And if I did, will I be happy to know?
After all, I am happy, I am sad and it rotates and it mixes up and it goes away and it comes back.
I am never happy AND sad, is one or the other. Normalcy is such a pain in the ass when you don't appreciate it.
It has to be expressed, in this case written, then read and thought about, then realize how good it is.

GM got bailed out, Cerberus got bailed out, GMAC got bailed out!!!
Is that what is pissing me off? Yes among other items.

Which Item is pissing me off the most?
- My behaviour

How do I stop being pissed off?
- Changing my behaviour

Will the change behaviour bring temporary relief?
- Sure it will?

How do I know?
- It has before, it will after

If I could only care more for others more than I do for myself...
What would that be like? Do I already? How is it measured?
Is it how much you give, say or do? Who does it matter to?
I don't know, but it sounds nice.
Is that the problem?
It comes and goes

I will try, no promises being made.
More is needed of me, hell!, SOME is needed of me.
Do I believe what I hear? I don't want to, but I do.
Wanting is everything.


I want to...

Friday, December 12, 2008

Cindy Anthony Should be convicted

The entire Anthony family should be charged with the murder/death and conspiracy to cover up the child's death. The human side of me says that it could have been an accident that Cindy and Casey tried to cover. But the "human" in me says that if there was an accident, why would you want the media circus, the foundation, the lies and drama?

Cindy is a sociopath.
-Did she ever show any stress?
-Did she ever show any sadness?
-Did she ever stop being on TV?
-"This is a tough lady" you may think, but a sociopath is just that; unable to grasp emotions.

I don't even bother with Casey Anthony, she is simply lost.

Now, I hear theories about possible drug cartels being involved on the child's disappearance and death. This is very possible, nevertheless, if this family was under such threat, that means that they preferred to save their own drug-dealing asses than to preserve the life of the child.

There is a remote possibility that the whole story is drug related, but I remain skeptical.

Could there be an inside man in law enforcement that is involved in this mess and will later come forward once Casey comes out of denial? or would be more lies?

Lock them all up.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Save The Drama For Your Mama


Sparks of sanity or insanity, does it matter anymore?

The days drag on and on, only if made to drag on.

Economic blues, recessional depression, less than perfect times, nostalgia over frivolous and egotistical pursuits.

The haves and the have-nots, the presumptive reach across feelings and emotions that simply are not.

Spiraling down as a vulture; a vulture that only has one eye and fails to see that the kill is not a kill but rather an empty plastic bag from the nearby big mart.

Perhaps the vulture is old, not of age but of tiredness and boredom.

People cry for all the things that they have lost, but they have lost nothing.

I cry for all the things that I have lost, but I have lost nothing, so I keep writing, thinking, spiraling downwards, but I am not a vulture, that, I am certain of.

I yawn, okay, it felt good. My soul aches a little bit, only a little. I just realized why.

It is Monday today after all. I have been having such a great life, that I forgot what adversity was, so I had to fabricate a small portion of it in order to continue my flight into eternity, or so I imagine.

Thank you world, for being screwed up sometimes; Thank you people, for screwing yourselves sometimes. No hard feelings world, only gratitude from me.

I am responsible for my choices, I don't care if anyone else takes that ideal or not.

My back hurts a bit, my head is empty now.

I am alive.


Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Cindy Anthony Is Guilty As Hell

As far as I know, and I do not know much; Cindy Anthony is guilty as hell.
Grandma is dirtier and colder than Casey herself. Where else would Casey have gotten such prominent and despicable traits?

The rotten apple grows a new tree from its seeds.

I really can care less if the evidence changes and both mother and daughter
are found innocent, (highly unlikely), my opinion as un-humble as it is, remains.

The face of Cindy Anthony is the face of conspiracy and coverup, it may even be the master mind.

I will sound very pessimistic but I think the truth will not surface in this case. The loads of fingerpointing between this abominable couple (Cindy and Casey) and law enforcement, the media coverage, the third party search teams and all of the who knows what other confused people like me that will only state their idiotic opinions; will make this case a perfect mistery.

- A child is no longer here (according to LE).
- The abominable mother daughter team want their denial an secrecy to be imposed as a new law.

- The child is nowhere to be found. ( The real issue)

This is my opinion, as flawed, correct, uninformed, presumptive, cynical, dangerous,
still my opinion.

May I have another?

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Rizal said it best

¡Adiós, Patria adorada, región del sol querida,
Perla del mar de oriente, nuestro perdido Edén!
A darte voy alegre la triste mustia vida,
Y fuera más brillante, más fresca, más florida,
También por ti la diera, la diera por tu bien.
En campos de batalla, luchando con delirio,
Otros te dan sus vidas sin dudas, sin pesar;
El sitio nada importa, ciprés, laurel o lirio,
Cadalso o campo abierto, combate o cruel martirio,
Lo mismo es si lo piden la patria y el hogar.
Yo muero cuando veo que el cielo se colora
Y al fin anuncia el día tras lóbrego capuz;
si grana necesitas para teñir tu aurora,
Vierte la sangre mía, derrámala en buen hora
Y dórela un reflejo de su naciente luz.
Mis sueños cuando apenas muchacho adolescente,
Mis sueños cuando joven ya lleno de vigor,
Fueron el verte un día, joya del mar de oriente,
Secos los negros ojos, alta la tersa frente,
Sin ceño, sin arrugas, sin manchas de rubor.
Ensueño de mi vida, mi ardiente vivo anhelo,
¡Salud te grita el alma que pronto va a partir!
¡Salud! Ah, que es hermoso caer por darte vuelo,
Morir por darte vida, morir bajo tu cielo,
Y en tu encantada tierra la eternidad dormir.
Si sobre mi sepulcro vieres brotar un día
Entre la espesa yerba sencilla, humilde flor,
Acércala a tus labios y besa al alma mía,
Y sienta yo en mi frente bajo la tumba fría,
De tu ternura el soplo, de tu hálito el calor.
Deja a la luna verme con luz tranquila y suave,
Deja que el alba envíe su resplandor fugaz,
Deja gemir al viento con su murmullo grave,
Y si desciende y posa sobre mi cruz un ave,
Deja que el ave entone su cántico de paz.
Deja que el sol, ardiendo, las lluvias evapore
Y al cielo tornen puras, con mi clamor en pos;
Deja que un ser amigo mi fin temprano llore
Y en las serenas tardes cuando por mí alguien ore,
¡Ora también, oh Patria, por mi descanso a Dios!
Ora por todos cuantos murieron sin ventura,
Por cuantos padecieron tormentos sin igual,
Por nuestras pobres madres que gimen su amargura;
Por huérfanos y viudas, por presos en tortura
Y ora por ti que veas tu redención final.
Y cuando en noche oscura se envuelva el cementerio
Y solos sólo muertos queden velando allí,
No turbes su reposo, no turbes el misterio,
Tal vez acordes oigas de cítara o salterio,
Soy yo, querida Patria, yo que te canto a ti.
Y cuando ya mi tumba de todos olvidada
No tenga cruz ni piedra que marquen su lugar,
Deja que la are el hombre, la esparza con la azada,
Y mis cenizas, antes que vuelvan a la nada,
El polvo de tu alfombra que vayan a formar.
Entonces nada importa me pongas en olvido.
Tu atmósfera, tu espacio, tus valles cruzaré.
Vibrante y limpia nota seré para tu oído,
Aroma, luz, colores, rumor, canto, gemido,
Constante repitiendo la esencia de mi fe.
Mi patria idolatrada, dolor de mis dolores,
Querida Filipinas, oye el postrer adiós.
Ahí te dejo todo, mis padres, mis amores.
Voy donde no hay esclavos, verdugos ni opresores,
Donde la fe no mata, donde el que reina es Dios.
Adiós, padres y hermanos, trozos del alma mía,
Amigos de la infancia en el perdido hogar,
Dad gracias que descanso del fatigoso día;
Adiós, dulce extranjera, mi amiga, mi alegría,
Adiós, queridos seres, morir es descansar.

English Translation
My Last Farewell
Farewell, beloved Country, treasured region of the sun,
Pearl of the sea of the Orient, our vanquished Eden!
To you I gladly surrender this melancholy life;
And were it brighter, fresher, gaudier,
Even then I’d give it to you, to you alone would then I give.
In fields of battle, deliriously fighting,
Others give you their lives, without doubt, without regret;
Where there’s cypress, laurel or lily,
On a plank or open field, in combat or cruel martyrdom,
If the home or country asks, it's all the same--it matters not.
I die when I see the sky unfurls its colors
And at last after a cloak of darkness announces the day;
If you need scarlet to tint your dawn,
Paint with my blood, pour it as the moment comes,
And may it be gilded by a reflection of the heaven’s new-born light.
My dreams, even as a child,
My dreams, when a young man in the prime of life,
Were to see you one day, jewel of the eastern seas,
Dry those dark eyes, raise that forehead high,
Without frown, without wrinkle, without stain of shame.
My lifelong dream, my deep burning desire,
Is for this soul that will soon depart to cry out: Salud!
To your health! Oh how beautiful to fall to give you flight,
To die to give you life, to rest under your sky,
And in your enchanted land forever sleep.
If upon my grave one day you may behold,
Amidst the dense grass, a simple lowly flower,
Place it upon your lips, and my soul you’ll kiss,
And on my brow may I feel, under the cold tomb,
The tenderness of your touch, the warmth of your breath.
Let the moon see me in soft and tranquil light,
Let the dawn burst forth its fleeting radiance,
Let the wind moan with its gentle murmur,
And should a bird descend and rest on my cross,
Let it sing its canticle of peace.
Let the burning sun evaporate the rain,
And with the struggle behind, towards the sky may they turn pure;
Let a friend mourn my early demise,
And in the serene afternoon, when someone prays for me,
O Country, pray that God will also grant me rest!
Pray for all the unfortunate ones who died,
For all who suffered torment unequaled,
For grieving mothers who in bitterness cry,
For orphans and widows, for prisoners in torture,
And for yourself to see your redemption at last.
And when the burial ground is shrouded in dark night,
And there alone, only the departed remain in vigil,
Disturb not their rest, nor their secrets,
And should you hear chords from a zither or harp,
'Tis I, O land beloved, 'tis I, to you I sing !
And when my grave, then by all forgotten,
has not a cross nor stone to mark its place,
Let men plow and with a spade disperse it,
And before my ashes return to nothing,
May they be the dust that carpets your fields.
Then nothing matters, cast me in oblivion.
Your air, your space, your valleys I will cross.
I will be vibrant music to your ears,
Aroma, light, colors, murmur, moan, and song,
Ever echoing the essence of my faith.
Land that I love, sorrow of my sorrows,
Adored Filipinas, hear my last good-bye.
There I leave you all, my parents, my beloved.
I go where there are no slaves, hangmen nor oppressors,
Where faith does not kill, where the one who reigns is God.
Goodbye, dear parents, brother and sisters, fragments of my soul,
Childhood friends in the home now gone,
Give thanks that I rest from this wearisome day;
Goodbye, sweet stranger, my friend, my joy;
Farewell, loved ones. To die is to rest.

Filipino Translation
PAHIMAKAS
Pinipintuho kong Bayan ay paalam,
Lupang iniirog ng sikat ng araw,
mutyang mahalaga sa dagat Silangan,
kaluwalhatiang sa ami'y pumanaw.
Masayang sa iyo'y aking idudulot
ang lanta kong buhay na lubhang malungkot;
maging maringal man at labis alindog
sa kagalingan mo ay aking ding handog.
Sa pakikidigma at pamimiyapis
ang alay ng iba'y ang buhay na kipkip,
walang agam-agam, maluag sa dibdib,
matamis sa puso at di ikahapis.
Saan man mautas ay dikailangan,
cipres o laurel, lirio ma'y patungan
pakikipaghamok, at ang bibitayan,
yaon ay gayon din kung hiling ng Bayan.
Ako'y mamamatay, ngayong namamalas
na sa silinganan ay namamanaag
yaong maligayang araw na sisikat
sa likod ng luksang nagtabing na ulap.
Ang kulay na pula kung kinakailangan
na maitina sa iyong liwayway,
dugo ko'y isabong at siyang ikinang
ng kislap ng iyong maningning na ilaw
Ang aking adhika sapul magkaisip
ng kasalukuyang bata pang maliit,
ay ang tanghaling ka at minsan masilip
sa dagat Silangan hiyas na marikit.
Natuyo ang luhang sa mata'y nunukal,
taas na ang noo't walang kapootan,
walang bakas kunot ng kapighatian
gabahid man dungis niyong kahihiyan.
Sa kabuhayang ko ang laging gunita
maningas na aking ninanasa-nasa
ay guminhawa ka ang hiyas ng diwa
pag hingang papanaw ngayong biglang-bigla.
Ikaw'y guminhawa laking kagandahang
akoy malugmok, at ikaw ay matanghal,
hiniga'y malagot, mabuhay ka lamang
bangkay ko'y masilong sa iyong Kalangitan.
Kung sa libingan ko'y tumubong mamalas
sa malagong damo mahinhing bulaklak,
sa mga labi mo'y mangyayaring itapat,
sa kaluluwa ko hatik ay igawad.
At sa aking noo nawa'y iparamdam,
sa lamig ng lupa ng aking libingan,
ang init ng iyong paghingang dalisay
at simoy ng iyong paggiliw na tunay.
Bayaang ang buwan sa aki'y ititig
ang iwanag niyang lamlam at tahimik,
liwayway bayaang sa aki'y ihatid
magalaw na sinag at hanging hagibis.
Kung sakasakaling bumabang humantong
sa krus ko'y dumapo kahit isang ibon
doon ay bayaan humuning hinahon
at dalitin niya payapang panahon.
Bayaan ang ningas ng sikat ng araw
ula'y pasingawin noong kainitan,
magbalik sa langit ng boong dalisay
kalakip ng aking pagdaing na hiyaw.
Bayaang sino man sa katotang giliw
tangisang maagang sa buhay pagkitil;
kung tungkol sa akin ay may manalangin
idalangin, Bayan, yaring pagka himbing.
Idalanging lahat yaong nangamatay,
mangagatiis hirap na walang kapantay;
mga ina naming walang kapalaran
na inihihibik ay kapighatian.
Ang mga bao't pinapangulila,
ang mga bilanggong nagsisipagdusa;
dalanginin namang kanilang makita
ang kalayaan mong, ikagiginhawa.
At kung an madilim na gabing mapanglaw
ay lumaganap na doon sa libinga't
tanging mga patay ang nangaglalamay,
huwag bagabagin ang katahimikan.
Ang kanyang hiwagay huwag gambalain;
kaipala'y maringig doon ang taginting,
tunog ng gitara't salterio'y mag saliw,
ako, Bayan yao't kita'y aawitin.
Kung ang libingan ko'y limot na ng lahat
at wala ng kurus at batang mabakas,
bayaang linangin ng taong masipag,
lupa'y asarolin at kauyang ikalat.
At mga buto ko ay bago matunaw
mauwi sa wala at kusang maparam,
alabok ng iyong latag ay bayaang
siya ang babalang doo'y makipisan.
Kung magka gayon na'y aalintanahin
na ako sa limot iyong ihabilin
pagka't himpapawid at ang panganorin
mga lansangan mo'y aking lilibutin.
Matining na tunog ako sa dingig mo,
ilaw, mga kulay, masamyong pabango,
ang ugong at awit, pag hibik sa iyo,
pag asang dalisay ng pananalig ko.
Bayang iniirog, sakit niyaring hirap,
Katagalugang ko pinakaliliyag,
dinggin mo ang aking pagpapahimakas;
diya'y iiwan ko sa iyo ang lahat.
Ako'y patutungo sa walang busabos,
walang umiinis at berdugong hayop;
pananalig doo'y di nakasasalot,
si Bathala lamang dooy haring lubos.
Paalam, magulang at mga kapatid
kapilas ng aking kaluluwa't dibdib
mga kaibigan bata pang maliit
sa aking tahanan di na masisilip.
Pag pasasalamat at napahinga rin,
paalam estranherang kasuyo ko't aliw,
paalam sa inyo, mga ginigiliw;
mamatay ay siyang pagkakagupiling!


And to all of those who I caused dissapointment, please know that I regret doing so, and that it was not my intention nor it was your great personas (k9!). There are forces more powerful at stake this time, and trying to pull away from their gravitational field would be a disaster.

Harmony is not a town in Central FL, it is the alignment of all planets, Mars, Venus and others.
Such alignment is beyond our comprehension, is just the way it is, or perhaps it is the will of all.

Life has stages, but to some, life is a stage, the stage, one stage.

Adios, I will keep seeking a higher understanding of life.