The Other F. U.

Such a difficult thing to do.
How did those who were able to achieve it do it?
How do we forgive ourselves first?
And if we think that we have, how do we know when we have?

Forgiving others, an even more difficult thing to do.
What about those who never forgive us but instead forget us?
Is it easier to forget than forgive?
How do we know when we have forgiven and not simply forgotten?

Then I look at children...

They don't hold a grudge, they don't worry, they trust and they love.
Why do we forget to be children?
Do children even know what forgiveness and forgetfulness are?
They trust and they love.

Then I look at us, adults...

We make claims of being driven by love, by hate, by feelings, by passion, by our children, by god, religion, trust, money, people....

And the list goes on and on, and when you tire of the list, you can always start a new one of opposite meaning or direction to the previous one.

But if we lived like children, what would happen?
Would we have to submit to someone who does not?
But, don't we do that already? Always submitting to someone or something.
So it seems that we all are children at some point.
We are still innocent, submitted to someone or something and still dreaming of a better life, if not pursuing one...

However, the issue remains...

Can we really forgive or forget?

I think we can.
Is not impossible but it is very difficult.
Let's keep on trying.

Que Sera? - Que Sera?

The disease that hurts more than dying.
What hurts the soul more than our body?
What makes people die inside?
What is worse than hate?
What is our own enemy?

Apathy.

Never a friend, but a companion by choice. Let it in and it becomes your best friend, the best friend that will stay if not made to leave. It is contagious and it can be transmitted to those around you. Perhaps maybe some got it from their surroundings.

My worst enemy is apathy.

There is a cure for this disease, it is hard to swallow for some, but taken in regular small doses is good for our mental and emotional health.

The cure is........

....... Empathy.

Many Years Ahead...

Many years remain ahead and that is a fact. Time will continue to do what it does best, going forward.

Time will be here much longer than I will. My time is not the time.

My time is limited, it is precious and it is mine for as long as I live.

I live my life in this time and my time in in this life.

The circumstances or reasons for my existence do not matter to me, they never did. I can only give meaning to my life by the time that I spend living.

I don't live for this world, the world does not live for me, I am a part of humanity just like everyone else around me, with our pretensions, defects, virtues and sense of what life is all about.

One day there will be complete peace, when that day comes it will be because I will become time.

Ponderings

How to destroy your marriage for sure:

- Flirt with others
- Lie about your life
- Stop wearing your wedding ring
- Keep secrets from your spouse
- Talk intimate details of your life with members of the opposite sex
- Make other people a priority, instead of your spouse
- Never admit to being wrong or apologize for anything
- Be a phony and a fake
- Try to control your spouses life while you keep your own little world with secrets
- Never give affection
- Kill all possibilty of giving a minimum amount of undivided time and attention to your spouse
- Never trust or listen to your spouse
- Make sure the advice you receive from your spouse is the last one and discard it
- Don't give your spouse what you give everyone else around you.
- Divulge details about your life to people around you
- Only care about yourself
- Put pride before everything else
- Keep pretending and lying the rest of your life
- And finally cheat, because what else is left after living a life of lies?


How to ensure you obtain a divorce after destroying your marriage for sure:
- Repeat the same steps.